New Week.

You have been gone a little more than a week now, and I am not sure what people meant by "it will get easier" honestly... The longer I spend without you, my days get harder.

The 4 months (or 125 days) that you were here, were the best days of my life. When I had nothing to live for and nothing to look forward to..... There was always you.

I stopped smoking again. This time for good... I'M SERIOUS! I kept trying to quit for all the wrong reasons before, this time I am quitting for you. I would do anything for you.

I went out with Eric last night and sang some Karoke. It was fun, I was shocked to learn of a place that offered Karoke.... Look at that! Karoke<---- my t9 on this phone will NOT spell that right.. K a r a o k e.

Anyways. I had the hardest time falling asleep last night. I had to sleep with the candle on. I would have kept the light on... But the electric bill is already going to be high enough without my new found fear of the dark.

I thought about giving up coffee too... But decided to wait a while, maybe 6 months after giving up smoking. You never know, if I stop both cigarettes and caffeine... I may pick up crack! Small steps. Which brings me to alcohol... Apparently, when I mix beer and liquer, I get kinda mouthy and forget everything I say and do, so I decided I was going to give up drinking... Thought about it and decided, its not the alcohol I need to give up! Its the self control I need to gain... I don't have to mix drinks, or drink heavily.. Its nice to enjoy a few spirits without over doing it. So with that said... Cigarettes are out, freedom is in.

I started running again yesterday. It was a bit chilly, but nice. Today I am starting back on detoxing my body from meat. I want to get back to my vegetarian lifestyle. (not to be confused with a Vegan lifestyle)

I am not looking to lose weight, I just want to firm up a bit and feel a little lighter.

Well, I ate my yogurt... Drank some coffee :-) looks like a good time for a run... I am glad you are with me.

love always,
. Mom